Bummed:(

First of all... Boo to me for not posting in the last 9 days! I have had a busy week, and I have barely been on the computer at all! I feel like I go one week with a lot of homework and things going on, and then the next week I have nothing. It flip flops.

But anywho-- yesterday was a bad day for me :(

I have been checking our mailbox daily waiting for some test scores from my school from a test I took back in September. All you teachers out there...it was the Praxis I test (or in Missouri, they call it the CBASE). Well, this test has 4 different sections to it....Math, Science, English, and Social Studies. You must have a passing score in EACH section (not a combined total). Well I first took the test about a year ago and passed all sections...except social studies. I have never done well in Social Studies...I've never been a fan of it. To make it worse...the test is over pretty much everything you have learned from grade school to high school (how am I supposed to remember all that??) Well I took it again and got my score on Saturday...I did not pass :'( You have to have a 235 to pass....I got a 230. A 230!!!! Seriously...5 points off!!! (which is more than likely equivalent to missing one question)

So needless to say, I spent my afternoon yesterday in bed having a pity party. I was really, really upset!!! More than likely, I will not be student teaching this Spring like I had planned, and that means I will not be graduating in May like I had planned as well. It makes me sick to even type that. I make all A's in my classes, I passed my Praxis 2 test (which is the "big" teacher test) with flying colors, I get nothing but compliments and positive feedback from the teachers I work with about my teaching. And now my heart is broken because the one thing I want to do in life more than anything will be held back that much longer. I'm crushed.

BUT, I am really, really trying to look at the positive. I know that God has a reason for this. I fully believe that nothing but good will come from it. He knows what is ahead of me in life. He won't steer me wrong. I believe it. I really, really do. He is teaching me more and more every day that HIS plans are right, not mine. Although I am sad about it, I am hopeful. God has not once let me down, He always exceeds my expectations above and beyond. And I am thankful for that. So even though I am breaking records for being in school for so long, I trust that it is for the better ;)

This is the first verse that came to mind yesterday... although I am upset, I can't help but smile knowing that God has everything planned out for me. There is no need to stress about it, try to take control over it, or give up. I serve an awesome God who has my life planned out for me! How cool is that!!!

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Coming soon: lots of updates and lots of pictures! :)